Late Night Thoughts

I feel that I have been growing apart from people around me. Probably it's because I don't know what I want anymore. I feel like I have been living in my own world for too long, I have lost touched to the real world outside. I was once a girl who was sure of what she wants and how she wants things to turn out; then she's determined to get them or get them done. I was very ambitious and clear-headed. I just feel like I am not doing the right thing at the moment. That's why I need a job. I need to get in touch with new people, new ideas and new environment. My social network needs to expand. Having a Masters degree or learning a new language don't seem to satisfy me enough now because knowledge seems to be like something that I can buy. However, life experience and crisis management are something that I can only learn from meeting more people and accepting new challenges. This is exactly what I need in my life right now.

You see, blogging can help me clear my thoughts a lot. I first started saying I don't know what I want anymore, now, just at the end of one paragraph, I have a solution to my problem. What can I do without blogging. C'mon to people who stopped blogging or thought blogging's a bad idea. I mean, if you are scared that people read your stuff, you can just blog privately to yourself, ie. keep a diary.

I guess I have been watching too much Gossip Girl lately. Even if Chuck Bass can change, better himself and move on from his "lack of focus in life" old self, I am sure I can do that too. YES, tv shows can be inspirational sometimes. It always depends on which angle you look at things. 

Time to hit the sack. 

Love,

Christy

AWKWARD modeling poses

credit: Brie @ lovelyish ♥

busy with...

BLACKBERRY HOUSING shopping...

Since my whiteberry is geting quite dirty now, I am been searching everywhere for the perfect customized blackberry housing. I bought a cheap one from a chinese manufacturer and the fit isn't great. Today, I've stumbled upon Eric's blog (CLICK TO VISIT HIS BLOG) and saw the most amazing customized housing for blackberry. He even does the installation for you. However, the down side is.. he lives in Malaysia and I live in HK. So it's impossible for him to assemble my phone for me. BUT BUT BUT.. I am an EE.. so I am definitely bold enough to take up the challenge of assembling the housing myself. So now the problem is.. WHICH ONE SHLD I GET????

PLEASE do help me pick!!!

shopping spree

I am super tempted to buy the jeffrey campbell LITA again?!?!?! solestruck has recently restocked my size in the black. OMG~ AND... the celine Luggage tote.. OMG! what to do what to do~

Haircolouring

who colours their own hair with drugstore haircolouring kit??? I DO!!! It's cheap, convenient, and you can do it anytime you want. But what I seriously hate is the lack of colour choices that are available in HK drugstores. The red and blonde shades are lacking for obvious reasons. Asians do not look good with red hair, and our hair is too dark to reach blonde just by dyeing. To get blonde hair, we have to go through the process of bleaching (maybe two to three times if we want to go platinum). I remember back in July when I was in Vancouver thinking what colour my hair shld become... I was so caught up with all those colour choices I saw.. I decided to go red because my skin is on the fair/pale side even though I am asian. I got a bleach kit to ensure that my hair can reach as red as possible. However, the bad side is the red faded after a month and I was back in HK after that month. I regretted not buying a year of supplies when I was in Vancouver. So how did I get from being brunette to being a red head? I used the two kits below. Tomorrow morning, I will be turning my choco hair to blue black. welcome emo hair~

MERRY CHRISTMAS ♥

Lane Crawford xmas SALE

Anyways, I will be doing this post in Chinese since Lane Crawford is only situated in Hong Kong and Beijing. 作為Lane Crawford會員，每年聖誕節都會收到Lane Crawford寄來的電郵關於他們一年兩度的大減價。早兩年，我還會對這大減價充滿期待，因為差不多每件貨物都有打折，最利害的是，一對$6500的YSL pump，我可以用$1900帶他回家。但是，這兩年，這個瘋狂大減價已不存在。他們所指的，只是一些賣得比較差的，才會打5折。其他比較好賣的，或者牌子比較出名的，只會打9折，甚至不減價。所以，這兩年，我根本未能籍著大減價的機會，帶一些心頭好回家。今年，我也會去逛逛吧。可能會有驚喜呢。大家都不妨去看看了。

[轉]那些經常笑，但不經常開心的人

總有一些人，他們看上去整天都很開心，沒有煩惱，像個小孩，好多人都會羨慕他們，但其實不是這樣的。他們不想讓別人看到自己難過的一面，更沒有能力一個人獨處，因為當夜深人靜的時候，他不知道一個人會發生什麽事，坐在窗前冥想走過的點滴。

他們貌似很堅強，因為在別人看來，他們什麽事都能微笑著去面對，但事實上他們長著世界上最脆弱的心靈，只是長期的偽裝使得別人很難發現他們內心深處的創傷。

他們只想簡簡單單、快快樂樂的活著，期待並且相信每個人給的笑容都是真心的，希望身邊的人都是真正的喜歡自己。即使別人小小的意見，也會另他們難過好久，他們真的真的很介意，介意自己不被人喜歡。因為，他們總是為別人想的很多，對別人總是比對自己好；把能對喜歡的人好當做幸福，喜歡別人比喜歡自己多。

他們總是那樣，前一秒還傷心的流著淚，後一秒出現在朋友面前的時候，已經滿臉溢著燦爛的笑容。有人說她們是向日葵，是的，他們在意的人就像是太陽，在面對太陽的時候永遠是明艷的花瓣，而太陽照不到的背面，那悲傷藏得那麽好，不願被看見。

humbleness

def.: Marked by meekness or modesty in behavior, attitude, or spirit; not arrogant or prideful

Why am I suddenly brining up the topic of "humbleness"? Well, it just came across my mind tonight. Am I a humble person myself? I think I am. I wouldn't say I am 100% modest, but I am close. I tried to think before I talk to make sure I don't hurt people with my meaningless words. We all know it, we don't mean what we say, but we say it anyways and end up hurting people. Being a show-off is just like that. Showing-off can be or could not be an intention. However, sharing good news with people can sometimes turn out to be showing off in someone's eyes. So, I always make sure I fine tune my ways of presenting good news to people.

ok~ nothing more for tonight. Need Rest. PEACE outz..


PS. I've updated a Christmas Playlist. Enjoy =D

10 random things

I am going to write 10 random things about myself. Hopefully in great details.... By the end of this, I hope you and I can understand me better.

1. I like winter. I definitely prefer winter over all other seasons. Has anyone realized that fall is not as equally important as all other seasons? Fall is used to being neglected, so I will also leave him out. So why winter? Winter breeze, winter rain makes me clear-headed. I become more logical, and I spend more time thinking about life; most calculations and thoughts tend to work out better during wintertime also. However, I have a habit of feeling lonely (VERY) lonely when winter's here, but my logical mind helps me overcome such feelings.

2. I actually don't like Tiramisu. How the heck did everyone came up with the idea that Tiramisu is my favourite. I mean, I wouldn't mind it, BUT liking it? NOPE! I would prefer raspberry chocolate mousse. If you are planning to get me a birthday cake, please skip tiramisu.

3. I prefer drinking over eating. I just think eating takes too much time and effort; as simple as that. So what drinks do I like? TEA! any kind of tea. mocha. coke. beer. lemon soju. bellinis.

4. I am a chaotic shopaholic. I CAN'T STOP BUYING.

relationships-wise

Let's pull away from clothing and music. I want to talk about relationship today. So I have recently became unattached. I am 24 and should be at least thinking about a serious relationship and 'marriage'. WOW. My heart gets heavy whenever I think marriage because I do not think I am ready for it; however, times flies and I will sooooooon (emphasized on the 'soon') need to get married someday. So I started thinking, should I find a man who is fit for me? or should I follow my feelings and find a man I love? Because they can be two different men. I can find a guy I am crazily in love with, and live on bread. Or I can find a guy who has a good job with a good sense of responsibility and marry him; I might not LOVE him~ but I will like him. What would be a better choice? This is one of the dilemmas I am having right now... Which path should I take? I mean, who can guarantee that the man I love turns out to be the guy with the good job and a good sense of responsibility. There are guys OUT there... that are like this, but I am not meeting them or I am not falling in love with them.

But most of you will probably just tell me to wait. Right? You will all say that I will know when 'the one' comes. Sigh~ Bullshit me no more, he came and left. Or can I have many 'the one'? It depends right?

gloomy sky

It's so gloomy out, I am losing apetite for everything. I would love it if it rains, but it's not. It's just cloudy and gloomy: Just like how I am feeling inside. Life is too bittersweet at the moment. This love hate relationship I am having with people is really driving me crazy. My intention here is to enjoy every minute I make; however, it seems like the people, the society are trying to drag me out of this talk. What do they want? Why can't society just let me be? Why do I always have to be so caught up with speed and improvement? and Why if I don't, I will be eliminated? I enjoy being an artist and seeing artists being themselves. They have no intention to follow the world; they only listen to their heart and talent. I wonder, sometimes, if I am an artists myself: for having such bizarre, crazy thoughts. Don't worry, I didn't put up this song because I wanna die. Just like the tune...

Gloomy Sunday - Bjork

7:13 pm

my beloved friends are far away from fashion \\ the nature of my career is as far away as fashion as u can imagine \\ my masters degree is trying to bring me close to fashion though \\ I have 5 closets in my room \\ all with fashion in it \\ I have a stack of books \\ fashion magazine we call it \\ I am an engineer \\ I engineer outfit on my free time \\ shoes makes me happy \\ I have a serious bothersome headache going on \\ need rest