in love with blogging

I have been in love with this blogging business ever since high school. It started with asianavenue. then xanga.. then sinablog. but suddenly I stopped blogging for two years. the reason being is that I thought it would be too dangerous for anonymous ppl out there to know what is going on in my life and what I was thinking and behaving like. but i m back now. there is no particular reason why i wanna blog again. it's just sometimes i need a way to express myself to others. maybe this is a good way to do it.

i dunt think i trust anyone enough so that i will tell them my real thought n feelings. maybe telling random ppl who read this might just have the same effect of telling someone i know. i m just in need of spilling out words.

how advanced this world has become. everyone is just one blog/ one email/ one msg/ one sms away. technology has just brought everyone so close. sometimes i feel like i know a lot of u out there. but physically i do not. i might have stumbled upon blogs of many. thought i have known them well. however, when i do see them in person, i act like i dunno any of them. i think this works the same in reverse. this whole blogging business is a big pile of confusion. you blog here with the purpose of letting others to read.. then again .. when someone visits ur blog too often. you call them stalkers. and of coz. stalkers is not too nice of a word. maybe he or she is just someone who is also going thru what u r experiencing right now. he or she might not particularly be qualified as a stalker.

wutever... stalker. friends.. wutever. they are all the same to me now. they are juss ppl i happen to encounter on this life journey of mine. of coz u might think. do i haf any friends? yes i do. in fact i know quite a lot of people. but i prob only got a hand full of true friends. and they are most likely not reading this. because by all means i do not need to tell them my feelings thru blogging. i can tell them thru my eyes and they will know..